I suppose the best place to start is the beginning. Not the very beginning where I had no idea what I was even doing or why. But the beginning when I finally opened my eyes wide and saw my passion for something real and finally made the decision to do something about it. That’s where I’ll begin.
I’ve been avidly creating for three years now with a recent break over the past six months. I decided to move away from where I first found my aspiration to create in order to build a life a little different then I originally thought out. In this process my creativeness slowed. I began to feel more distant from myself and started falling back into the same depression I fought hard to stay out of. But alas, such is life to fall back down the hole you’ve already climbed out of several times before. This is why I create.
But I do this in an unconventional way. You see, most people would board that hole up and travel as far away from it as possible, but I do the opposite. The best way to describe the type of art that I do is this: I jump in the hole that my mind continuously coaxes me into. I prepare myself first by tying a rope around myself that’s securely fastened to reality so I don’t get lost and I bring a flashlight so I can see what the hell is going on down there. This “hole” I speak of is the depth of my mind I can’t easily confront.
I paint through emotion. I paint this way in hopes I will one day stop fearing my own mind. I paint in such a way that no one person can see the same image but so every person can see a different image and perhaps no image at all and perhaps several images at once. There is a way the mind speaks to us and creates images from pieces of shapes and color and texture. Our minds create for us in a way we may not consciously understand. But it is, simply, beautiful.
This is the beginning. The beginning to further understand myself and to help you understand why I create the way I do.